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I've decided i have nothing else to contribute on here.. lj is over.. hope the rest of you have fun..
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| i've held this up for way to long.. its time you know... i hate you.. |
[13 May 2004|03:36pm] |
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ive decided im avoiding every complete possiblity of you ruining my life anymore..
i will ignore you and your ignorance from this day. pretend you dont exsist because well if you try any harder to be something your not you will eventually become the nothing that i percieve you as in my head.. so this.. is it.. no more drama.. because you dont deserve the attention ive allready handed to you so gladly on that silver platter.. looks like you got what you wanted..
i was feeling a little nicer so i deleted some of it.. haha
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[08 May 2004|05:05pm] |
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Friday jason took us to a metal show then came home and watched texas chainsaw massacre with christen.. haha i had alot of fun..:0
there's no saving us tonight..
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| band practice.. |
[06 May 2004|08:43pm] |
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Today was supposed to be our first practice with our new guitar player.. so we waited around after school for her to meet us in the parking lot, because she goes to another school so we had to wait a while.. but then we got a call from the guy that was bringin her down and he said his car was overheated and wouldnt make it..so we went back to my house and watched tv/ate for a little while then mollie came by and we went to meet mellissa bc by the time we got there we wouldnt have time to practice so we just met up with her to yah know..introduce ourselves and all that cool stuff..then we came back to my house and me and lauren and christen went out to practice..me and christen got sit transit gloria down..( i know..pretty easy..but it was fun) and lauren sang some for us but we really needed a guitar in there..but its all cool..then we came back down to my house and hung out listenin to music..all the cool things..yah know..
but well.. now im gonna go shower and get ready for tomorrow..
i cant wait :)...ow ow!
i really love this song.. and well if you read the lyrics or actually listen to the song.. i dunno it just makes me happpy but it could be because im a girl and sappy songs make me smile.. but anyway..whoever comes to your mind while thinking of this song must mean something to you..right? ..well i duno if that makes sense..it could just be me.. oh wel..
"we drive tonight,
and you are by my side.
We're talking about our lives,
like we've known each other forever.
the time flies by,
with the sound of your voice.
its close to paradise,
with the end surely near.
if i could only stop the car
and hold onto you,
and never let go...
i'll never let go.
as we round the corner
to your house
you turned to me and said,
"i'll be going through withdrawl of you for this one night we have spent."
and, i want to speak these words
but i guess i'll just bite my tongue,
and accept "someday, somehow"
as the words that we'll hang from.
and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things anyworse.
why does tonite, have to end?
why don't we hit restart,
and pause it at our favorite parts.
we'll skip the goodbyes.
if i had it my way,
i'd turn the car around and runaway,
just you and i.
and i... don't want to speak these words.
cause i, don't want to make things anyworse."
yeah..i know im a loser.. :/
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| havent heard this song in a while..so i decided i still love it.. |
[03 May 2004|08:00pm] |
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Don't even take a breath.
The air is cut with cyanide.
In honor of the new year.
The press gives us cause to celebrate:
These air raid sirens,
Flood barbed-wired skylines,
By artifical night.
As we sleep to burn the red
From our bloodless lives
Tonight we're all time bombs
on fault lines.
Have we lost everything now?
We're walking like each others ghosts
Around these silent streets ( the seditatives tell you everything is alright)
Like calendars dying at new year's eve parties
As we kiss hard on the lips
And swear this year will be better than the last.
Jet black - the ink that spells your name.
Jet black - the blood that's in your veins.
Jet black - We say, "how long can we take this chance not to celebrate?"
There's music playing,
But we dance to the beat
Of our own black hearts
And draw diagrams
Of suicide on each others wrists
Then trace them with razorblades.
Fire to flames
"strike match."
Burn these words from our lips
As the dagger screams
"Love is dead."
and it's a "newspaper tragedy."
Have we lost what we love?
Have we said everything?
Does it change everything?
Stare at the clock,
Avoid at all costs,
This emptiness.
Ten seconds left
until midnight
nine chances to drown ourselves
in black hair dye
eight faces turned away
from the shock
seven windows and six of them locked.
five stories falling
For ever and ever
three cheers to the mirror
now there are two of us.
Can we have one last dance?
How can we take this chance not to celebrate life?
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[02 May 2004|09:54am] |
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rufio vs. brand New:
brand new
saves the day vs. taking back sunday:
taking back sunday
new found glory vs. the get up kids:
The get up kids
jet vs. aerosmith:
Aerosmith
simple plan vs. good charlotte:
uhh good charlotte i guess
the all american rejects vs. dashboard confessional:
dont know enough DC to judge, so ill say aar
bright eyes vs. from autumn to ashes:
F a t a
dashboard confessional vs. something corporate:
soco
him vs. metallica:
i hate metallica
new found glory vs. blink 182:
blink
old blink vs. new blink:
new blink..
yellowcard vs. rufio:
yellowcard
the ataris vs. wakefield:
ataris
story of the year vs. rufio:
soty
nirvana vs. aerosmith:
nirvana
student rick vs. never heard of it:
never heard of it (davin dell'osa! ow ow)
rancid vs. red hot chili peppers:
i dont like red hot chili peppers to much...
the starting line vs. new found glory:
the starting line
a static lullaby vs. alkaline trio:
a static lullaby
weezer vs. nirvana:
weezer
no use for a name vs. something corporate:
soco
silverchair vs. thrice:
thrice
finch vs. a fire inside:
AFI
bush vs. nirvana:
nirvana
further seems forever vs. dashboard confessional:
FsF..
anti-flag vs. thrice:
thrice
nofx vs. millencolin:
nofx sucks
sugarcult vs. the juliana theory:
sugarcult
camp kill yourself vs. millencolin:
cky
saves the day vs. rufio:
saves the day
Friday-went places with christen and mollie
Saturday- did 8 hours of community service and got beat up..
Sunday-sadly..skipped church..and slept till nine..when my nose started bleeding ..again.. :/
not a bad weekend.. i guess..
Maybe, your gonna be the one that saves me...
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[29 Apr 2004|08:56pm] |
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Taking back sundays "where you want to be" -July 27-
Ok, so i havent updated in a while and the last time i did it got deleted..twice..
well thats cool...right? ..ehmm thought so..
Its sort of hard to update..because well i havent done it in a while so everything that might even be the least bit interesting has allready left my memory..ohhh well today i found out i brought my 63 in biology up to a 71..woot woot! thats pretty cool.. dont you just love how everybody slacks off the last month of school..
actually..ive slacked off in everything.. school,friends,me.. etc.. i basically see it as.. i dont care what happens now.. because if i make it through central alive.. im gone.. and wont ever be back.....i think im just going to take some time to figure out exactly what it is im wanting.. but for some reason im holding on to something i cant ever have..but will Never let go.. one day im sure things will pan out and i'll have my whole life to look forward to.. but things are just so blury right now.. and ive had absolutely more than enough of my share of drama.. im sure its everywhere.. but that is the number one thing i want to avoid..
..blahh..things would be alot easier if had someone to help me, but that wont happen..
im tired of feeling this way...
leave some thoughts..
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| This is the sound of settling.. |
[26 Apr 2004|08:45pm] |
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Choose a band/or artist and answer only in song
TITLES by that band:: Northstar
Are you female or male::Pollyanna
Describe yourself:: The Accident Underwater
How do some people feel about you:: Between Horns and Halos
How do you feel about yourself:: As tall as lions
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: To my Better Angel
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend:: For Members Only
Describe where you want to be:: Orange Island
Describe what you want to be:: The Pornographers Daughter
Describe how you live:: American Living
Describe how you love:: Like AM Radio
Share a few words of wisdom:: Safety In Numbers
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| thought id update |
[20 Apr 2004|03:09pm] |
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Spring break turned out to be alot of fun.
Friday i went to laurens then saturday we went to dollywood,the new rollercoaster was great.. we rode it over and over..hah..we saw some hardcore punk kids there too.and had alot of fun.. my weeks been way to hectic to say it all.. proms coming up.. and i still have to pick up my dress..shoes..etc. i have to do community service that morning from 6:30 am till 10:00..come home..get my hair did. HA..how ghetto.. and then i think im goin to christens to finish gettin ready but that im not positive on.
im glad schools back..things are alot different..haha today me and christen tried to print off tabs in the cosmotology room..uh didnt work to swiftly..cause mollies a moron who dont know how to save things..haha jk i <3 you mollie
anyway so many things are goin on i dont know where to start..
umm actually i dont even think im going to tell at all..
we were suposed to have band practice today but um mollie had a "dr." appointment (lol)so maybe some other time this week i guess..
oh well... i got things to do.. so until next time..
"Arriving late, you clean the debris
and walked into the angry sea;
It felt just like falling in love again.
And it felt just like falling in love again.
Can you tell me why you have been so sad?
Can you tell me why you have been so..."
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